I Always Believed I Would Die In Childbirth

This is a secret I had never openly shared.

My fears of dying during childbirth may have become evident to my husband and doula as I tirelessly presented them with facts about global maternal death rates.

Only after I realized my spiritual awakening was a re-birth of myself, it clicked. I believe a part of who I used to be did die when I had my first child.

I wish I could tell my old self not too worry so much about it, as my future self was actually going to be even better. A better version. A more conscious and awake version.

In an uncomfortable coincidence, my childhood best friend had passed away only two months after the birth of my son.

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