This is a secret I had never openly shared.
My fears of dying during childbirth may have become evident to my husband and doula as I tirelessly presented them with facts about global maternal death rates.
Only after I realized my spiritual awakening was a re-birth of myself, it clicked. I believe a part of who I used to be did die when I had my first child.
In an uncomfortable coincidence, my childhood best friend had passed away only two months after the birth of my son.